Chronicles of the unemployed – yet

It’s been a few months after I actually left college with the promise of a bright future and the assurance of none.

I could recall my frustrated-hopeless-angry-desperate-lonely-pessimistic state on my way to my first job. And a mysterious ray of light would done upon me. Tinggg…Now I am happy.

But it wasn’t easy. It was tough knocking on company’s doors and saying it over and over again that you are worth even just their consideration and time.

Nothing is harder than telling them you’re actually qualified and graduated from a prestigious university and that you are equipped with the skills and qualities of a to-be-professional.

Much more challenging is finding a position that would fit you especially when you earned a not-so-well-decided course. It’s risky to be underemployed and it’s more to assume roles larger than you. But it’s part of the process.

And so you try and try and try.

Read anything posted on doors, walls, newspapers, name it. And among the choices (assuming there are any), gather your nerves and give it a shot. Who knows there might be a glimpse of miracle along the way.

Sounds easy.

But not always, because you see the calendar is changing page, and there you still are – hanging. You wait for the call. That one important call. And fall asleep waiting.

You ask for help from people who seem to know the process so well and tell you it’s gonna be fine. And you are haphazard, doubtful, but you smiled anyway.

You hear advice. And you thought that’s it. You won the lottery!

It’s a day before contract signing and you tell everybody and hear the worst of feedback. You doubt and delay and let the chance pass by.

You see, it’s been you and your being cautious-coward.

Bet on another chance. Maybe, just maybe you’ll get it this time. Maybe.

And after all that has been said and done, all those nerve- cracking interviews, you almost mastered the art of answering questions. Trashed resumes.

One day, you’ll find out you’ve tried and you are tired. You want to quit.

And you get the next best thing - try it again.

Sooner or later you’ll have no choice but to say yes. Not because there is no other choice but because you are in a position where you will appreciate anything because you have been tired of blaming yourself and the universe. Somehow that makes you happy.